its hard to believed....

i had enough hearing stuff about you..

but then again i dont want to listen to what people say,

i just want to see it for myself.

whatever that u are up to nowadays,

one day i'll come to know about it..

Singapore isnt that big after all.

and thats where..

....seeing is believing

thinking of those words you said to me,

"after you, there wont be anyone else"

are you really sure of that?

did u actually regret saying those words to me?

action speak louder thn words..

PROVED it to me...
be a man of your words...

i still remember how confident you are whn you're telling me those words.

come on, i know you even before we got attached..

you once told me that you cant stay single..

& tt u needed someone to be there..

so now haf u yet found someone else?

how is she? is she better off thn me?

if she is, then i just want to say.. congrats &

all the best ... i just hope you're happy with her

remember what i used to tell ya

find someone who is much much much better thn me,

s0meone who can really lead you to the right path..

someone who can love you with all her heart...

someone who can fulfil your needs...

i'll be happy for you then.

tts it-

every single day i tell myself to be strong,
strong enough to accept the reality
ive been emotinally breakdown this few days
and no one knows how exactly i feel

im just putting up my false smile infront of everyone,
its not nurul.. its nt who i am..
i act as if nothing happened,
i act as if im strong enough
i act as if everything is going perfectly fine..
im being so fake
its not how i feel inside...

i have to faced this all alone
i felt so low,depressed
unaswered question running thru my mind
im just wondering whn will i get those answers.

everytime whn i think of him,
tears started to flow down my cheek
its hurts.. it hurts so bad
to know that i miss him soo much
whn there's nothin i can do about it.

everything has ended
and im sure he already moved on with life...
whereas im still here...
& part of him is still in my heart...

i know i have to move on too..
its just the matter of time..

However,
i have to be strong..
im not that nurul
who used to be so weak inside
i tell myself im as strong as who u think i am..

im here to say this to you,

thanks for everything..
you brought joy and laughter to my life
thanks for being there for me thru thick and thin
thanks for accepting me for who i really am..
thanks for your sincerity in loving me.

i swear i'll never ever forget those memories i had with you
& it will always be kept in my heart-

tho we already part, dont treat each other as enemies, cos we are not.
remember that im someone whom u used to spend your life with
at the start of 11th May 2006.

MY GIRL ost rocks to the core!
im almost done with this drama series.
i would wanna rate 10/10!
excellent!

so this is how i actually spend my time with
watching korean drama
other thn being a workaholic myself

speaking of that,
i haf a few days to complete my assignment.
come to think of it, i dont wish to end this work
i guess for me now, working my ass off is better thn doing nothing

hmm... i'll be working up till this Sunday.
which is a turn off-
im pretty much sure that there's gonna be loads of peeps

but anws, next monday onwards i'll be free
hmm maybe going out shopping
btw, branded perfume are on sale!
yippie!

apparently ive made friends frm anna sui.
so yeah, she's nice enough to give me discount (:
btw, elizabeth arden selling at $57 only actual price $113

okay, so much for GSS...
just put it simple,
am gonna shop this monday!
want to follow?

ps: look whose trying to forget who first uh...
you're not even doing anything..
nah, be it then...
if you think there's no other way out

whats with you pretending?

i dont have a new lover
and i dont WISH to find a new one...

whats love actually?
just by saying I LOVE YOU??
just to haf someone to be there for you?
crapp-

all i can think of is to be myself
and i just wanna be alone

please dont wrongly accused me
accused me of doing something that i nvr did

for once, please dont hurt me again...
think before u wanna say smth
is it logical enough?

pouring those words on me
without even think it may or may not hurt me
spare some thot for me

is it wrong being nice to you?
is it wrong for me to msg you like how i used to whn im with you?
u doubt me alot..

whn can you stop looking down on me?

hey there how are you?
hope you're fine
if you happened to read my blog
i just wanna say i miss you
i really do.


anws, i know im abit late to wish happy mothers day
but yeah its better be late thn never..
to all mothers out there i wanna wish HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!
so jz now i had dinner with my family including aunties and uncles over at lau pa sat.
bro bought cupcakes for all of them and i tell you its heavenly yummylicious~ lol.
beautifully decorated in PINK specially for all mothers..
and yeah... i bought mom GUESS purse too. so sweet kan?
hopefully she likes it uh.


so the dinner with them was great!
they ordered plenty of food from satay to seafood and so on..
and to find out later we had quite a num of left over food to bring back hme.
i was happy that i get to see pipluff, well at least he cld cheer me up!
he look more boy-ish this time cos he alrd cut his hair..
handsome boy la dia... but i still miss his long emo hair!


then again we took tons of pics of him with his ORANGE SHIRT.
hahah.. see, he even knew tt was my fav colour.
ive yet to transfer all the pics to my compt.. i'll get it done soon yeah
oh ya before tt .... dad bought me new spectacle..
pheeweet... ni time baik nye!


okay so tmr im free...
most prollie im going out
but im not sure where im going to
anywhere, anyhoos-
as long as i can keep myself occupied
you shld know the reason why i haf to.
nah, i dont wish to go further into it..


like hollashit!
im working full shift for 2 days
tues and wed. god bless!
here comes the GSS preview..
if you guys wanna know la-


so yeah meeting up with dalila on tues aites?
best of luck! this will be our first time working full shift.

k thats about it
gotta end here thn
take good care of yourself


till then, RUL

MEMORIES OF ME & YOU
(the latest pics)

I see your coat and I fall apart. To those hints of you I’m clinging. Now that’s when I need them most. I should get up, dry my eyes and move ahead. At least that’s what you would have said...

"You don't die from a broken heart, you only wish you did"

and... thanks for once being part of my life

you said you are leaving
i couldnt believe such hurting words
you said you'd only love me once
i thought that im the one

how am i going to withstand such hurting words from you?
it crashes my heart hearing those words
it cant hide my sadness

if i can cry the whole day,
if i can shout your name,
can i stop searching for you?
can i continue to live my life?
till you disappear from my eyes...
can i wipe you away?

believing in love has become a sin
ive been in pain,
a pain that could kill.

How i wish i could,
if i can cry my heart out
till i dont haf you in my heart
and painfully live my life

sometimes i just think that
reality is cruel
why must we end ourself in this state?
when everythings going on perfectly fine
why must it suddenly turn sour?
god, if this is really the path we haf to go,
please show it to me...
i dont want to get hurt or to hurt someone i love

i believed only time will heal this wounded heart of mine
if only i can show you how much it hurts me, deeply
and till it slowly eats up my heart...
i just wanna be alone for now
-i m not what you think i am...


and yes.. 'specially' to this bitch! if you happened to be reading this... listen up, i wonder how many people you hurt so far. are u freaking happy now? you must be clapping your hand. and yes, you succeed. ur so good.. so good at pretending. fuck it! all i can say to you.. what goes around comes around. setiap perbuatan ade balasan nye. maybe u wont get it now, u will.. in future, gotta trust me.. just rmbr that god is fair. he's watching every single steps ur taking. i wonder whn can u at least learned to repent? is it fun to laugh at ppl's misery? and please dont pretend to be GOOD, and i SO dont need your blessings okay? it will get even wost thn to haf your blessings. u're just being e pain in the ass. thanks, bcos of you. we end up like this. i swear dont u ever let me see you.. or i'll start cursing you and hope u'll get the retribution REAL soon, i dont give a f**** get out of my life and also get out of his life too. stop making yourself look even more pathetic! go grab your half price life k...


to yazid;

thanks for your 1 yr anni msg. tho, it means nothing now... i m really glad you remembered this very day. the day ive been looking forward to. unfortunately, it doesnt work out. its okay... what is done, cannot be undone. just haf to live as it is.. im not taking it easy.. im just trying to haf a peace of mind now.. im sorry.

btw, happy 1 yr anni to you.
hope you enjoy this very day at work.
11 May 2005- 11May 2006
-7.14pm

going on alone now...
getting myself hurt over and over again
and at last its over
u wished for it too much
and it happened,
yes it did.

its okay,
its not your fault..
we're just not meant to be together
and that we haf to put a full stop on it
life has to move on as it is..

i try not to dwell over it
i try to live without you
like how it used to happened a few months back

however,
i cant help thinking of those memories that we left behind
its never easy for me to forget you
the only time i will, is when you alrd had found a new one

and yes i still love you
it hurts to know we haf to let go when we still love each other
really, it hurts so much
maybe there's a reason behind this
why all this happened
and only god knows....

im really glad to have met you
remember where we started off?
we're just classmates...
after that we gt attached
on the 11th May 2006
-a date to remember for the rest of my life
unexpectedly, now everything has ended..
& lasted for a year..

if you realised i add your fav song in my playlist.
dealova- whre u used to dedicate me that song on the phone..
well its just the memories of you now...
and i will live with it..

k la i'm alrd getting draggy.. guess tts about it..
i gtg work now.... today ends at 945pm...... sigh=(


see ya arnd,
if fate were to meet us again in future.....

im so sick ryte now
i had fever since ytd
my whole body was aching
and i felt so lethargic
all i need is enough rest
but i still need to work
sigh-


work was pretty okay for me
i could handle the pressure so far
its quite tough tho at first
but after a few trials,
i realised its quite cool!

im currently working at robinsons raffles city level 1
guess what? i m under cosmetic department.
yayness.

anw just fyi,
next week.... here comes the GSS!
(great singapore sales)
and i haf to work full shift for 2 days
thanks eh..

so people be nice enough to drop by at robinsons k?
lol.

i think thats about it...
im going off to bed now- 745pm
btw tmr & thurs start work 545-945pm
yay!
k la i cant hold on any longer..
im really sick nw..

k toodles people!
OUTS-