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Thursday, November 30, 2006

my look at the time now. i cant sleep nor do i have the propensity to start mugging. maybe tonight. thats why my apathetic psyche has been telling me to do so. okay tell you what, im so gonna start mugging tml. like seriously shit. i have to. i wanna get this over and done with. after exams, maybe im finding job. i wouldnt wanna spend a few months staying at home doing nothing. i guess i should work to kill time and also earn some pocket money for myself. i cant wait for a shopping spree. i guess i should, only after i got my pay.. eh but wait. ive yet to find a job. anyone wanna recommend me? oh btw. i heard they are calling back delifrance old staff to come back to work at deli. nah. i wouldnt want to work there again. maybe im not gonna work at the fnb line. i wanna do sales this time. be a sales promoter! lol. so yearh. hope i can find one.

i swear this is so random.

people used to ask me how's my relationship with him going on so far? well i would always wanna say its getting better each day. its the fact, but sometimes i must say we used to haf this on and off quarelling and arguing.. another second we were quarelling another second we were laughing. its very complicated and hard to explain. i dont want to go into further about what had happen. i just wanna say im always happy to be with you. thanks for being there for me thru thick and thin. i love you with all my heart. ive ever imagine that i would turn insane and also getting myself emotionally disturbed whn he left. i cant bear to loose him simply bcos i love him so much. this may sound so mushy and stuff but that comes from the bottom of my heart. and i dont bullshit whn i say i love that someone. if i could take out my heart to show him how much i love him, i would have done that. oh crapp! but thats how truely madly deeply im in love with him. you just dont know..

Last Updated @ 9:28:00 PM

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

everyone.. tell me that i have a GORGEOUS husband please... [i know you know that kind of thing uhh]

awww what a lovely couple uhh...

SO SWEET.......

PEACE OUT EVERYONE.... WE LOVE YOU:)

Last Updated @ 9:07:00 PM

Sunday, November 12, 2006

heyloo everyone! how's life? hope everything is fine..well rul's back to blogging mood nowadays. dont know why.. boredom i guess? and btw for those who take their time reading my blog entry. thank you for your effort yearh. greatly appreciated.

thanks to all my friends who came for my open house ytd . and also thnks to syed yazid for that winnie the pooh gift for my 6 months ani. very cute! i wanna cuddle with it every nite hopefully makes me feel closer to him..

haiz.. i miss him alrd.. he went to malaysia today.. hope he had a great time there. btw. everything tt happen now is getting more and more complicated. haiz.. dont wanna mention anything here la..

you know what people.. learn how to take care of yourself aites.

enough said.. i gtg .. going to my aunts house now.. will blog again some other time.. till then. love, RUL.

he loves me, and i love him...

but its just getting complicated...

Last Updated @ 5:07:00 PM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

heyya! Happy 6 months anniversary to syed yazid and nurul.....

girls out there stop wasting your time aites.

and btw who are you to judge me whn you dont even know me? tell ya what.. just LEAVE this place.. i think it would be better if you can just buzz off..cos i dont really need any 'HELP' frm a sore loser like you.. yes, paranoid is the word!! sorry.. just leave.. so dont waste time here...

Last Updated @ 3:51:00 PM

To whom it may concern

you know what? you guys are one bunch of losers. i think you guys had just wasted your time doing this cos i dont really see a point and benefits that you'll get after being yazid's stalker. so much for that ANONYMOUS huh. wtf? it could be better if you guys had just mind your own business and make full used of your time doing something useful. if you got what im trying to say here. i dont care what people wanna say about me. i am what i am. i dont need people to tell me what to do or give useless remarks, frankly speaking that wont affect me at all... it is just something that people like them would normally do whn they cant have what they want. they simply cant see others happy. anw if you people dont know the real story yet please dont blindly give nonsensical comments cos what you've heard is only from one side. and furthermore, u dont even know me. isnt it obvious enough that u people are all bunch of losers? oh, well said. you guys are just waiting for the time tt somehow u ppl might get to win his heart huh.. oh.. try hard k ppl ! and what?.. shameless. i am!! really. got a problem with that? come on la people do something useful k. jgn jage tepi kain orang. oops i don t mean to be rude here.. but i rly think it would be good if you ppl can just look for your own happiness.

Last Updated @ 1:24:00 AM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

like i expected it to be... THURSDAYS is just a bad day.

haiz.. im really tired of quarelling. what have i done wrong this time?. whatelse do u want me to do? havent i showed you my love? havent i fulfil your needs?

i felt so demoralised..

Lost....

afraid..........

simply afraid to faced the reality. i dont know whats gonna happen next... truth said. im not prepared yet. i cant.. why must he kept thinking for the worst? im leaving him? senang je ckp gitu. why, are you asking for it? sick of me alrd? whres all the hopes and confidence in you that u had before. so much for telling me you're confident that we cld last long, n yet you're just taking back your words. you just have to build up the confidence in yourself. you cant go on thinking negatively the worst that cn happen to us in future. if you kept thinking for the worst, it will then be what it is.

it is how much we gv each other our full support and also by going thru thick and thin together. in future, im sure there will be more problems tt we had to faced. is just how we solved the problem. if there's a will, there's away. in order to progress in our relationship, we need commitment. if there's no commitment from both parties, we can nver go far. haiz.. im so stressed now....... hope will get better tml. nah.. i shall just stop here..

Last Updated @ 8:35:00 PM

reply to your blog entry: what makes you think that i will leave you? please la you.. think positive k. love you:)

Last Updated @ 8:35:00 PM