sorry people i know i havent been blogging lately. IM UBER BORED. feeling guilty now. i cant sleep the fact that i just make him angry. damnn. i feel so bad. sometimes there's certain limit to joke about. the problem with the both of us, we are too playful whn we're not supposed to. this time i know, i played around too much and its over the limit till he cant tolerate anymore and that he hangup the phone even before i could finish up my sentences. i was just about to crack that stupid joke to him and yet he already hangup the phone. why would i even do that in the first place? think about it first. have i always being so unreasonable to you? have i not being honest to you? i believe whn its you, i still give you chance to speak up and hear your explanation. i dont hangup the phone just like that. why cant you just listen to what i wanna say?. i was about to tell you that I WASNT WITH THAT DELIFRANCE GUY, i just created it. it was muji all along whom i went out with. he was the one who accompanied me to collect my uniform. my intention was just trying to tease you. sigh. so much of telling me that you trust me. guess, i dont think you do, cos you still have doubts. i wouldnt even go out with another guy in the first place. im not that kind of girl who play behind your back. no sorry i dont. you should know me by now.- think about that:(

well, a lesson to learn from now, im going to be serious and vow not to play this kind of shit anymore. since he really cant take this, i might as well stop and just be serious throughout this whole entire relationship. if serious business is what you always want. enough of problems that we had gone thru before. i dont want this to repeat itself. i know you're trying to put this relationship back to the track where it used to be. its all in a messed. i can say we are almost there, everything going on smoothly not until what actually happen today. to think back, i think it is something stupid. please you, 10 days left to our 2nd month. please dont spoil it. you told me we can go far. 2 months relationship seems like 2 years. i felt that ive learned so much in this relationship. if one doesnt give in, the matter will never be solved. its more like give and take and thn forgive and forget. if it does hurt you in a way or another. i wanna say sorry. i know this is abit too much.. i didnt expect it will turn out to be this way.... sorry zid.

im still waiting for his call and will not stop.......... you have to know the real thing.