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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

ARE WE STRANGERS?

i was just disturbed by his presence

my instinct is soooooooooo right. 99.99999999% of my heart says that im gonna see him today. OKAY people. there's a speech from the principal at ITE DOVER TODAY. so everyone frm ITE CENTRAL were expected to be there to attend this talk. ITE CENTRAL include, ITE BISHAN, ITE BEDOK, ITE MACPHERSON.. so yearh ITE BEDOK was the last one to reach. so while waiting for them we watch MR BEAN. YAWNS! i watch it like 10030045 times?. I TELL YOU its like so paradise la. MINAH2 will say this.. '' CUCI MATA'' there's like alotttt of malay guys down there. like hollashit! anyway spot a few handsome ones la. but wtever that doesnt concern me. so while waiting i decided to '' survey'' the place. so i was like looking arnd.. finding familiar faces. guess what. it so happened that I SAW HIM. i couldnt believe my eyes can? i saw him sitting with his friends. my friends told me that he's frm ite bedok. i was disturbed by his presence that i wasnt really listening to the speech given by the principal just now. anyway its damn boring la. so yeah.. back to him. frankly speaking its been 5 mnths since i last saw him. he look abit diff la. strange thing is. we didnt acknowledge each other. but he was looking at me and i was looking at him. we ACT LIKE STRANGERS thats the thing. just to tell ya. if you happen to come across my blog. let bygones be bygones. i dont know i just seem to be nervous whn i saw him just now. prollie this will be the LAST TIME THAT IM GONNA SEE him. hopefully he can take care of himself. and also find he's own happiness AMIN.

anyway not to be self-conscious or what.. HARVEY was telling his friends abt me. he say smth. face like korean.. smth like tt la. i wasnt really listening to his conversation cos i was pretending looking arnd and act nth happen. i got his email but... no way im not gonna add him up.. i just wait for him la.. like i FOREVER have to wait for uttsada to come to me..HAAH! wtf ! that is SO OFF! anyway he's look so smart today. i like~

Last Updated @ 11:25:00 PM

hola people!

yay! i was nominated to be the commitee in mic studio. hmm actually didnt really expect to be in. the reason is i just join the cca. but good enough. they voted me. so yearh kinda surprised too. hehs. anyway EFC lesson was cancelled again. screw MR CHOONG pls? we are all having a hard time for e project. he can willingly took a day off. like fck ryte. the first draft deadline is pretty near. and we hardly know what to do cos he freaking absent himself for EFC period. the deadline for the 1st draft is on the 28 february which is a few days left! god please help us. the thing is we waited for him for freaking 1/2hr and he didnt turn up. so the class went off just like that. anyway i stayed back with lisha and zid after school cos i got mic studio meeting. AND WE ARE WAYYYY too early before the cca start just because efc lesson was cancelled. so yearh decided to settle down at chat with lisha and zid. i just hate to say this. we are forever being a stalker. like seriously. HARVEY'S geng was there. me and lisha had to argue again. both of us just love to argue la. cant help it. she kept insisting that 'harvey' was there. LIKE HELLO i know wayyy better than she does. hehes. so anyway lisha mistook this guy as HIM. just because he's hand were also bandaged. being the bitch of the day. we decided to walk arnd the school cos like i said we are wayy too early for the meeting.we are goddamn bored that we choose to walk arnd the school and at the same time(hoping that somehow i might bumped onto him) anyway i wasnt really looking forward for that okay!. lisha's trying always to convince me abt him. guess what?. we practically tour arnd the school and he's nowhre to be found. so we getting so restless and all so we decided to make our way to the student hub to serve the net. GUESS WHAT?! once i enter the hub. i freaking saw him there la. HAHAH.. i was like pinching lisha HARD. sorry girl. too excited already la. pls bare with me. so being the bitch for today we went in and find our seats. LISHA just intentionally make me sit beside him. OH MY GAWD. she's cruel isnt it? haha. kidding la. seriously got no idea why are we there in the first place. so suddenly come to think of it i havent reapply my locker. tada! all the best nurul! i cant access thro the locker system. damn irritating can? i gave up! so decided to go to radioblog instead listen to songs since everyone's there trying to show off their music. i search for THE USED song title BURIED MYSELF ALIVE.emo punk again. guess what?!.. he's like freaking listening to my song and was acting stupid can? with his hand knocking against the table. HAHAHA caught ya! there's this point of time whre we HAPPEN TO TURN and look at each other at the same time. how cool is that huh. urrgh i look shitty. didnt smile at him cos it was a sudden reaction. too late to react. lol wadever!

CAN SHE JUST STOP SPOILING MY DAY? JUST A TORTURE to look at her early in the morning. GTSD was sitting together with my friends at mac. like how in the world did she get to know them?. can soomeone just pitty her, give ONE SOLID SLAP on her face, cos i think she's really in need of one. go look at yourself in the mirror and get alive. she's soon to be a school dropout. for sure. and also homeless girl. what a pitty. i saw her again whn i came back frm school together with zid. how bad can my day be? tell me people... well buzz off you fat ass bitch! such a pest!

going to ite dover headquarters tml. yayness! but before that gues what. LIKE wohoo!3 SOLID HRS for PE lesson. DOING NAFA tml. SHIOK MANY2.. urrgh!tts it babe. anyway just to tell ya i got his email already. yearhh.. but yet to add him up in msn. soon la.. not in a rush tho.

Last Updated @ 11:25:00 PM

Monday, February 20, 2006

UNFORTUNATELY

what's bothering me now huh?. neeway just to say that UNFORTUNATELY i bumped onto him again. all thanks to my dear friends that acknowledge me about his whereabout. like do i give a damn about it. sometimes my mind keep telling me to put a full stop and thats it, no more looking out for him and all. but my feelings says likewise. i cant really hide this feelings anymore but i think im just having a HUGE crush on him. well its just a crush. like what i used to tell myself. i loook at him as my idol like how i used to really go crazy for UTTSADA.. so yearh the fact that NOW im seriously working on it. trying hard and forcing myself not to acknowledge him. i thought i could accomplished my mission for today. to no avail. i ALREADY bumped onto him for the 3rd time?. whats with that huh?. hopefully tml somehow i dont have to face him. and yes! i can go home after OFO lesson. how cool is that huh?..see. i just love school:)

i dont want ya to hurt her. words are just words. how can you love someone and give her hope whn you just go to know her? do you think you did the right thing?. so whats with that common phrase that you used to tell me. IM MELTING IN YOUR EYES?. you're the only one for me. promises are meant to be broken. are you gonna used it on her?.. my gawd.. thats all folks. hopefully she wont easily fall for it. she's smart ya know.. pls learn how to win someone heart by proving it to her- not just empty words. meant what you say. cos once you break someones trust its hard to gain back. so just a piece of advice frm me. dont say you love her whn you dont mean it. enough of breaking ppl's heart.

Last Updated @ 11:35:00 PM

Sunday, February 19, 2006

LOOKING FORWARD TO GO TO SCHOOL TML. wth?

well this is funny. ive never look forward to go to school. but yearhh kinda bored la at home. anyway gonna get new handphone. i dont know whn but soon. W800i or panasonic phone? (for once i actually think HOT pink is nice:) hehs weird. i think i should get w800i la rytee? firstly.. THE PHONE IS ORANGE IN COLOUR, and ALSO i can store ALOT ALOT ALOT of songs in it. wheee~ PANASONIC?- i just think that the phone is nice cos its freaking HOT PINK.. i just like the appearance.. the function likewise i heard its not that good la.. so i shld go for w800i lah k?

anyway tommorrow first period sucks! OFFICE ORGANISATION.. hopefully i wont fall asleep tml cos its all theory theory and theory. im sooo gonna buy alot alot of PEPPERMINT MENTOS to keep me fresh and awake during her lesson. so yearh hopefully i dont have to bumped onto him tml. cos that sucks big time. or gd enough i dont have to see him tml? -roll eyes. ok lets look at my darling rowley. blog again some other day.

i think ROWLEY IS OH SO HOT PLUS CUTE.

DONT YOU THINK SO?

(anyway he's mine) sorry people..

Last Updated @ 2:41:00 PM

Friday, February 17, 2006

HOLLA!

currently humming to the song called

''Selagi Cinta Tetap Cinta''

sang by helena

sekali aku mencinta

tak kubiarkan jadi benci

tergerak hatiku berkata

cinta datang karna dirinya

bagaimana bila aku

bukan perawan spt yg engkau mau

mungkin saja dulu ku pernah ternoda

apa bedanya bila aku mencinta

aww.. i just like this song. nice ryte?. kinda addicted to it. been listening for the past few days. so no more emo punk shit!?. NO WAY. emo punk still alive! MATCHBOOK ROMANCE just rock big time! anyway my emo punk songs are way limited. gotta ask lili to start sending me more emo punk songs. ive been wanting to listen to avenged sevenfold! whre is it huh?funeral for a friend? dark new days? oh man.. there's like a lot of songs that lili still owe me. gotta get it frm him soon. BAH!

so what happen today?. hmm its friday! i love friday:) the fact that i can go home early today. after school no plans. so decided to ate lunch and walk arnd j8 as usual. OH MANN tts like the most boring place ever. ive been there practically everyday. and its the same old thing. so yearh as usual went home with my BLUE members:) heh.

this is only the BLUES. whre's the whites?

sorry for those who is not in this pic. we only take the blues:)

so thats part of my girlfriends in class. gotta take with the whites some other days la. for now blue members first. anyway i just hate this. teachers started throwing alot alot of PROJECTS to do this month. like hollashit! for now i have freaking 4 projects to do. BPF,EFC/OFO, PIE and OFC. damn ryte? urrggh! Thank god we can choose our group members! yay.

WHATS WITH ME KEEP BUMPING ONTO HIM?

i dont know if its just me or what. but seriously speaking ive been bumping onto him for the past few days which is soo freaky can?. no matter how much i tried to avoid him it seems like i just have to bump onto him everywhere i go. sickening la. i just dont get it. its not that i always checking him out. the fact that he's everywhere to be seen. is tt fate or what huh?. or is it just a coincidence. but its like EVERYDAY we bumped onto each other. i mean like duh im kinda happy la that we bumped onto each other. but not everyday. NOW whnever i look at him somehow he look very annoying. urrgh. he's handsome, tall, very fair and HOT. so?. alamakk i just feel irritated la smtimes. like just now.. on my way to class. i saw him at the 4th level with his friends. whn its about to go home. i saw him AGAIN. and guess what??.. on my way to interchange walking along the pavement. he's like freaking behind us la! like since whn they came out? i thot the last time i saw him is whn he's still standing infront of his class with his friends at the 4th level whn im like on my way down to the foyer. then, to find out later on.. they actually behind us. that is soooooo freaky. so yearh ate lunch with my girfriends at S11 and accompanied them back to bishan control station. i tell myself and pray hard that somehow i dont bumped onto him cos its almost 2 plus they must have already went home. so after sending my gf to bishan control station. guess what happen this time round? i was walking through j8 main entrance walking towards 7 eleven and guess who i saw?! i freaking saw his usual hangout friends coming out frm KFC. i was behind them. so i started walking slowly hoping that he's not with them. so guess what!?!?.. as i walk past kfc. damn! i saw him! he's like freaking COMING OUT frm there la. oh-my-god. tell me la what is this?!!. coincidence again huh?. dammit. i cant find other ways to avoid him. i just pretend to call someone. (nabila shld know this) its like the usual me. PRETEND TO CALL someone. altho this might sound stupid. but i seriously got no other ways. i was freaking walking alone la. my gf went home already. wadever. this is so typical. anyway getting a new phone mayb tml or next week. yayness! hehs. okay gtg now till then blog another time:)

ps: i heard ALL ITE CENTRAL student going to ITE DOVER next thursday to attend a talk or smth like seminar (i have no idea). the bad news is. ITE CENTRAL, including ITE BEDOK gonna be there too?! my god... guess whose in it?. oh mann! dammit..

Last Updated @ 7:36:00 PM

Thursday, February 16, 2006

PRETTY PSYCHOTIC SKIN RYTE?WOOHOO!ORANGE!

rul's back on bloggin. missing in action for weeks. sorry im so busy with my hectic schedule that i hardly blog or went online. so yearh let me tell you what happened for the past few days as much as i can recall.... events that took place this month is the valentine singing telegram. anyway just to tell ya im in it. yearhh.

MONDAY- nothing much just normal plain school days. boring
TUESDAY-valentines day performance
WEDNESDAY-nth much went out with ite friends.
THURSDAY-last day of valentine singing telegram.

TUESDAY-VALENTINES DAY PERFORMANCE

so people you'll never believe what i did for the performance. I HAVE TO FREAKING sing during assembly. anyway it was a last min decision. initially i plead mdm salinah not to presume that singing programme cos i wasnt really prepared at all. received a last min phone call frm aisyah regarding the assembly performance. i was so freaking scared la and i didnt practice at all. thank god i memorised that song TREAT ME LIKE A ROSE sweet isnt it? so i think it wasnt tt bad after all cos i know how it sounds like. the thing is, seriously speaking i've never perform infront of the whole school before. i told myself to just give it a try. so yearh i did it! at last agreed to perform. wohooo!:) anyway product design people wasnt there so i managed to slowly overcome myself. im so not gonna embarassed myself..i just give the best shot and thats it. my experience?. i find that im a stage fright. well of cos im not used to it cos thats like my first time. but seriously speaking it was a great experience singing infront of the crowd. geez. my face look so cramp la. holla shit! lucky enough i managed to sing my part well. hehes. my heart was beating tremendously whn the crowd started cheering and calling out my name. ''NURUL BAIK AH''... shit la i just look so shitty can?? with my cramp face.. all thanks to the audience tt started cheering. urrgh. anyway my other friends who has their own verse, their voice hardly could be heard cos there's a mic problem. its either the mic or the way they hold the mic. and whn comes to my verse. HELL YA. is it just my voice or the mic? its like freaking loud and echo-ish! so after the performance mdm salina approached me and i was still freaking nervous if somehow i sounded bad. mdm salina thnk me for being the outstanding one. huh? no comments.. so yearh fara darling come back to help us out with e singing telegram. yay syg kau! NOW LIKE FINALLY its over no more song dedication. im tired of singing already. been singing for the past few days. gotta do smth else now. oh ya i meet zain, zaki,muji, siddiq, danial,pingx and all to collect back my N level cert. and yes! LIKE FINALLY I GET TO MEET SRIEE DARLING. miss her so much! mwacks mwacks. :)

Last Updated @ 8:45:00 PM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

HE'S CHECKING ME OUT. LIKE WOHOO~ JUST A CRUSH!.

As usual i get really excited whn comes to this. I KINDA high today. the fact that someone just brighten up my day. like seriously SO MUCH. i was delighted to know that he came back ytd. i couldnt believe my eyes whn i saw him. i never expected that he's still studying in this school. cos its been week since i last saw him. at first i thought that our fate will only end there. he's like my first crush in this school. the thing is he's not mat. AND he look like zain ruffedge. we just happen that everytime 'co-incidentally' we'll bumped into each other. thats like so weird ryte? in one day there's at least once we'll bumped onto each other. hurhur. so yearh. he come back with an injured hand and leg. i heard from jehan that he met with an accident whn he was riding his bike to school. thank god that he's okay now.. AMIN. so yearh i saw him like twice today. during lunch break and after school. and it was a co-incidence again. so after school we decided to stay back. slack at school canteen. so guess what? i was telling vasanthi what happens if he comes down?.. then abt 2 mins after tt ... guess what??.. he came down!!.. ahaha. i was like OH-MY-GOODNESS. am i just dreaming?. then all of my friends were like trying hard to signal me. and at that point of time i was praying hard that they dont blabber anything. once they blabber. im like so dead. and tts it!. so thnk god they didnt. the girls pull my hand and drag me all the way. PRETEND that we are all buying food. i just feel like a stalker. HE WALK past me and SMILE. smile?!. ohmygod. my face was all red la. very malooated can? my friend caught him smiling at me. hurhur. so i just shut up and try to control myself. so we get back to our seat. the 6 of us were like laughing and laughing cos vasanthi just have to crapp blonde jokes. haha i was laughing like an ass. and at the another side of the table. he was like checking me out la. i think i seriously look pathetic whn i laugh. horrible okay! so now. all blame it on vasanthi. hehe. she make me look so ugly. so after awhile. zid come and join us. hehs. my all time favourite boyfriend. so he come and join us for a chat. he told me about his ex girlfriend. how they treat him. haiz.. zid zid. i just pitty him. he showed me his ex neoprint. he's like soo sweet can?. that girl just dont kno how to treasure him. haiya. anyway after looking at his IC i finally believe that he gt the arab blood. full name. syed yazid al smth smth bte al smth.. i cant rmbr what is it. but yearh.. HE'S AN ARAB. wheee~ haha.. then we go home together-gether. yearhh tts all for today. im so tired now.. i wanna bath now.. OUTS.

im so disappointed.. did badly for today's test. urrggh. all stoopid careless mistakes..

Last Updated @ 8:30:00 PM

Monday, February 06, 2006

HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY SIS!

Today is like the best day ever.

besides than celebrating her bdae

i get to eat birthday cake! yohhoo~

firstly wanna wish my youngest sister HAPPY 11TH bday. love ya!! sis call her friends for a mini bdae party here. mum cook all her favourite food. (which is my fav food also). im like so hungry now.. but i dont wanna missed telling you guys why am i soooo freaking CHEERFULL and godaamn happy today..... ( BLUSH!)

Last Updated @ 5:04:00 PM

Sunday, February 05, 2006

rul's BACK!

its raining cats and dogs now...

im so gonna blog about what happen today.

im so bored as u can see im seriously blogging now.

okay tml back to school... sigh.

in a few mins time sis gonna turn 11.. 6th feb. i lied to her that i didnt get her anything for her bdae. she's like so upset now. I bought her birthday present yesterday with nana, dannx, lili, abi, michael and faris. am i a good sis or what?. for sure she gonna like it! yay. cos i bought exactly what she's been eyeing for. she's just lucky to have this nice sister. hehes. self-praised huh?. so anyway ytd managed to watch chingay at orchard. the place was fully packed with ppl. abi and friends wanna play pool at lucky plaza. i sooo have to tell ya this. that place is sooo not the right place for pool. infested with mats and minahs. i feel like im one em tt belong to e mat/minah paradise. i feel so minah can?. urrggh. i hardly spot any chinese ppl. all thnks to abi for his smart idea. firstly they came up with the idea of watching movie. as usual im so flat broke ytd.. and the thing is i dont really like watching movies in cinema. im weird huh?.. tt just me.. anyway besides than what happen ytd.. its just normal day. nth much. went for chingay and also visit piingz for new year. TODAY?. err.. im just plain bored. stayed at home and rot the whole day. tml schooling so i gotta go soon yearh. 5 mins to sis bdae. OKAY gotta wish her now. bbye ppl!:)

Last Updated @ 11:38:00 PM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

hola! just come back frm school. my god. i just have to say this. school rawks today. cos firstly. I LOVE PE lesson. mind you. thats the first time in my life i actually mentioned I LOVE PE. haha. clap hand for me!! whoohoo! ok for the start of PE lesson. i hate so much la pls. is like a torture to me. worst then what i ve been tortured in my former school. this SCHOOL is so damn strict in PE lesson. run 2 rounds infront of the foyer without STOPPING. anyone stop will have to restart all over again. i guess at the rate that im going thru now, somehow i might lose weight. hopefully la. cos that is what i always wanted. to be future flight attendent. i seriously need to work on it. no more junk food! bro print up pics of flight attendent and pin up at the fridge to think that i would at least feel guilty after looking at it.. that is sooooooooooooo mean. i seriously think it works for now. ytd i wanted to drink sweet drinks. hell ya. after i saw that photos. i change my mind and grab plain drink instead. hehs so typical. anyway back to what happen in school. finally SOMEONE can appreciate me. he's like so polite and sweet today. i dont know what has gotten into him. i help him with his friendster. frankly speaking i had a hard time finding for him MICKEY mouse pic. i ask him what you want for your background. zee told me anything.. then suddenly he look at his mickey mouse shoe. so guess what?. he thot of having mickey mouse as his friendster background. i was like.. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?. haha. so im done with his friendster finally! he owe me one:)! wtever. so yearh finally there's no EFC lesson today! yayness. if not i'll drop dead. he's lesson sucks big time can?. so we had this short OFC test today. its a surprised test. thank god i still can recall back whatever she has teach us last week. so it was okay la. good good. after school wait for vasanthy for awhile cos she needs to attend some short meeting. so stayed back in school with lela, yanshan, vasanthy, lisha and her friend. oh ya there's still zul(frankie muniz), saiful and zee. the rest left already. some of the girls went to mac to smoke and wait for their bf. haha! finally i saw sirah's boyfriend just now. she's been wanting me to see her bf. she claims that her taste is better thn me. HAHA WATEVER. anyway i can say that her bf quite good looking. ok la.. can buat lauk. he's short la.. expected him to be tall. ok la.. dah padan tu 2 ekor pendek.. hehes. sak jer. so thats all i have for today. i need to get some sleep first. THANKs diyanah for that song! hehes.

Last Updated @ 5:43:00 PM